It is always comforting for me when my dreamscapes confirm the truths that I am trying to put forward in my waking life. I tend to look inward for confirmation of how my actions affect my purpose on a day to day basis. As I have said before, I believe that the inner reflections that our subconscious provides, manifest themselves as dreams with the purpose of revealing to us our true selves. This is the self that wants to connect with all of the pleasures and joy that the universe offers. This self has the power to break free of the trivial desires of the flesh; pride, envy, materialistic obsession, and ascend into the realm of imagination. This realm of imagination however, has little to do with the fictitious exaggerations, and much more to do with an element that encompasses the similitude and harmony of the universe.
My dreams have been and continue to be exceptionally influential in terms of confirming direction in my life. Dream interpretation has opened up a door for understanding myself more, because all the answers are coming from within me. It makes me feel as though I am the inlet and the outlet of all the potential in the world, and that thought is at once calming and exciting.
The dream that I had last night confirmed a lot of the things that I have been working toward improving in my own life. While I am always looking to improve my self, practice self-care and grow in knowledge every day, I also struggle with a lot of self-doubt. At times it seems like a never-ending battle between me and the antagonizer in my head, but in the moments where I can overcome that voice and become better, I feel that I have taken two steps forward.
In the dream, I wake up in my bed to see that my bookshelves have fallen off the walls, exposing the foundation and taking some of the wallpaper with it. My immediate thought is to find a way to fix it, going through the process of all the things I would need to do and beginning to stress over it. While looking at the damage, my fiancé comes in and says, “Well, why don’t we just tear it all down? Just do it over together?” And in that moment I was so overwhelmed, not just by his calmness and acceptance of what I thought was an awful situation, but by his willingness to open to change for my benefit. Those feelings and thoughts are so real to me, and as we began to tear into the wallpaper and knock down the walls, I felt confidently unrestricted.
“To dream that you are peeling or stripping off wallpaper denotes that you are beginning to let your guard down. You are breaking down your barrier one layer at a time. It also indicates that you are revealing aspects of yourself that have been kept well hidden…To dream that you demolish or break down a wall indicates that you are breaking through obstacles and overcoming your limitations. It also means that you desire some freedom and independence. If you see a wall crumble, then it suggests that you have risen above your problems and overcame your barriers.”
The desire for freedom and independence is something I know well. At times, I feel like I am barely hanging on to the reigns of adulthood, but in this dream I was allowed to break down that wall by myself. While I may not feel that I am doing enough at times, I realize that this is in part because of that voice of self-doubt in my head. This dream has allowed my to realize more fully, that my independence and freedom does not mean that I have to be an Island, and as I allow others to be there for me as a support system, a confidant, a friend, that I, myself become more independent and free.